It has been a great end of the year. I think I actually get it. I understand how I might be missed if I were not here. It was a revelation that occured to me a couple of weeks ago. I suppose this is selfish, but at least I believe I am worth something. DS and BH and I really can have a good time together and they both need me as I need them. It's a great start to the new year. Happy New Year!