I feel like cutting tonight and I don't know why. Every so often that happens. We spent 6 hours in a workshop about bullies and the emotional effects they have on their victims. Maybe that was it. The speaker read two essays about a kid who committed suicide, then one of the teachers was talking to me about one of our students who committed suicide last year. Then there was the news about the grandmother who committed suicide after killing her two-year-old grandson. Not a good day in those ways. Then I couldn't even find a pocketbook to buy to satisfy my buying binge! Well, that will have to leave that for another day. At least I didn't just buy one to have bought one like I usually do. I am going to try really hard to curb the spending so we can go on our trip out west next summer.
Sometimes I feel so limited in how and when I say things so no one can figure out who I am. I have this set up so that my gmail is untraceable. It is a shame that has to be that way. Sometimes I really wish that i had someone besides my therapist to talk to about all of this, but writing this will have to do.
Now that I have pissed and moaned for today, I will log off to come back another day when I am in a better mood.
2 comments:
Hang in there. Your blogs sounded as if things were getting better. Life always throws curve balls to make it interesting.
and whats wrong with feeling freaky (yes that other way) ;o)
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