As I was taking my multitudes of medication, I wondered if I should just stop. But then came the memories of the spiral down into desperation. K. once said that John Nash (the mathematician portrayed in A Beautiful Mind) had his profound visions when he was not taking medication. Does this mean that he should not have been given medicine so he could be a genius through and through? I guess each person needs to decide this on an individual basis.
I am practicing not getting into the her/him/themselves bit. Part of the thesis defense that took place nearly two weeeks ago. I have actually finished. Of course it took four years more than it should have, but that was what the wallet and the mind could handle. Now I have two degrees and no where to go. Hopefully I will soon find what is my next step in life. No more school, no more kids, now I should find something less selfish to do.
Tired and unable to see with this old pair of glasses, I say goodnight.