blah, blahbla, blahba. Can't thing of anything positive to say, so i will say nothing.

Back to the Grind

Vacation was quiet as usual. No trips to anywhere, just home for the holidays. It was ok, though there was the usual tiptoeing around to make sure nobody got offended, but I am not sure that happened. On New Year's Eve I told DS (quietly) not to guzzle his cider because it was rude. Then M. guzzled his and DS commented that he had been told not to because it was rude. I think that probably caused discussion after doors were closed. Oh well. At least I didn't call anyone a bitch this year (in my head or out loud.)
I have been alone at work for the past few days and it has still been boring. The couple of jobs I do have to do I haven't been able to because I can't do them while waiting on students. There are no library jobs open anywhere near here. I keep hoping that something will open up near home. This doesn't seem likely. I also go back this week to youth group alone, no takers for the position yet. Maybe it's just me.
I think I am getting burnt out on all of it. With so little contact with peers and the brief contact with students, I am really sick of it all.
Let's see, i have complained enough yet?

More grey weather and warm too. Not like 60 degree warm but high 40's warm. Too warm for snow, but too cold for a lot of outdoor activities. And it's supposed to rain again today. It's turning out to be a bleak fall. I have one more book to review, but I don't feel much like doing it right now. I have successfully learned to use the Video Furnace. It doesn't take up much of my time because it tapes in real time, so once it starts I have an hour or more to just leave it. Can't remember what I was going to say so I'll write more later.

Today is a crappy day. It is cloudy and rainy again and it is too warm for December. I'm really tired and can't wait to get home to nap, but first DS has an appointment, so I drive all the way home, pick him up then drive all the way back. It's ridiculous. Well at least it is supposed to be sunny tomorrow. I have been reading some very good children's literature blogs. I read them once a day and get to find out what is going on out there.

Some of the one's I like are:
Fuse#8
Book Moot
hiplibrariansbookblog
Neil Gaiman's Journal
and
bookshelves of doom

Check them out and see how you like them. There are a few more I read that I have not included here.

Thanksgiving and the weekend were nice. We had Thanksgiving at D.'s house. We went to visit Pop, then went shopping. On Saturday we did some cleaning and Sunday we helped fix the garage door at Mom and Dad's. I went to see Dr. S. It was an interesting appointment. He turned an entire incident around so I could see it from the other side's point of view. He also said that my motivation is probably just lagging from boredom and did not change any of my medication. DS. has a cold and was miserable yesterday with it. He took a good long nap which cured some of it. Then we forgot the no games rule and he played for three hours. OOPS! I have to write to his teachers and see how he is doing. I will probably write today. I am almost afraid to see how things are going after an ok report card. More later.

I should have stayed home today. I am so drowsy, it's not funny. DS has a showcase tonight and I want to be awake for that. He has an assignment that is due tomorrow that he hasn't finished yet. I am really angry with him for being in this situation because I encouraged him earlier this week to get ahead on it, which of course he didn't do.
I have been reading great things about a book called Flotsam, by David Wiesner. I am betting that it is this year's Caldecott winner. Probably not a difficult choice to make, since everybody who has reviewed it has given it rave reviews.
I have to be careful about working out when listening to a book. Tuesday, I was listening to Maximum Ride and the main characters were being chased. At the same time I was working on a machine for my arms and apparently got caught up in the moment and didn't pay attention to the fact that the weight was far more than I usually work out. I can really feel it on my arms today.
It's raining again today (fourth day in a row with cloudy skies.) Maybe we will get some sunshine to finish putting the shed together and fix the garage door. The garage itself needs cleaning but I think that will have to wait for another weekend. bye now.

I read an incredible book on Friday. It was called The Boy in the Striped Pajamas. It was not the most well written book I have ever read and it was written for a younger audience, but it will haunt you for days after reading it. BH has a cold and is really tired. He has been doing to many weekend things and needs to take a break. I'm pretty tired too. I will be asking Dr. S. about my meds because I think they may be too much for me. I feel like a slug all the time and don't really want to do anything, even read. I'll be seeing him this week and can ask about it. DS has new medication to take and see if it works better.
Bedtime.

Mostly different guys except one. We had a great time, but a long drive home!

Here are the guys.

This past week went by pretty quickly. DS was all caught up with work. I am going to speak to Dr. S about my lack of motivation. I am not even up to reading or knitting which is unusual. I don't feel too depressed so I am wondering if it is one of my meds. I'll have to wait until next week to find out.
We really are into fall because it has been in the twenties during the overnight and only up to the forties during the day. Nice crisp days as long as your dressed right. We finished the leaves and BH mowed so all we have left is to clean the shed and get it ready for winter (and fix the garage door, which currently is only available manually.)
Back to work.

Made a fool of myself last night telling about a dream I had last year. I just couldn't keep it to myself. Oh well, I didn't tell the whole thing so part of it is still mine alone. I don't know if everyone keeps secrets to themselves, but I know I do. They are little things, but things I relish to hold onto for me alone.

This weekend was great. We got most everything cleaned up and put away and we could finally relax. I donated blood for the first time. Then I just seemed to let everything go and I could feel my body let go of the tension that has been there for a while. I've also kind of given in to work. The right opportunity will come by at the right time. DS was very busy this weekend with homework in every class and a couple of papers to right. He worked really hard all weekend and I am proud of his work. BH also seemed to relax even though we worked all day cleaning, laundry, cat litter, etc. Now we will start getting into the Christmas rush, but I'm not freaked out about that yet. J even called me last night, which is always surprising. Gotta to go cause I'm at work.

This week has been a long one. One of our former students committed suicide this week. He graduated last year. In many ways, it is almost like it didn't happen since there is almost nothing being said about it. I don't know if this is because he graduated last year or because he committed suicide. The administration has given us a list of students to watch out for who were his friends. His family has kept quiet about it, though they are having a wake and funeral for him, both of which the public is invited to. (I know that is not proper English.) Hopefully I can get my own thoughts and feelings straightened out quickly.

DS is being stubborn about finishing his school work and wants to see M. tonight for 1 1/2 hours. I have decided I will leave him there by himself so he may talk to her more than he shares with me. Something I don't like but will give in to anyway. I am jealous of the fact that he will share with her, but not me, but I am glad he will share with someone.

We had a good weekend, the weather was fantastic until Sunday when it rained, but that seemed almost fitting for the occasion. Even though I knew some of the people in the Colonial Army, it was still intimidating to be in between two lines of people knowing that your side was surrendering. DS seemed to have a good time, so I think it was good that we brought him, even though he now has work to make up.

The weather outside is great today, at least it looks great-it is cold out there. I think this may actually be the killing frost for my roses. They have withstood the weather so far because they are close to the house, but if not today, then definitely by the end of the weekend.