Not againnnn!

Here I thought that I had gotten past the worst and here I am cutting again. It's been almost three years exactly. Between the jot sleeping and everything else I couldn't hold back anymore. It isn't too bad-no bandages needed. Dr. H was on vacation last two weeks and I called S on Friday and she has not returned my call. I have an appointment on Wednesday with the Dr., I am going to try really hard to behave myself until then. At least I don't have a plan. I'm spending too much money and trying to hide it. So far it has worked but I have to stop. I bought make-up that I don't need but suddenly feel the urge to use. It seems that the blanket that Geodon put over my emotions was what I needed. I just feel like crying-no wait, I am crying. It' s 1:35 AM and I am going to take a Benadryl and see if I can fall asleep.