What do I do?

I am not necessarily a conceited person (though with BPD I do realize that everything DOES revolve around me) but I am still unsure of why this happens or what I am supposed to do about it. When I picked up my prescriptions, when the pharmacist was handing my change to me, he held my hand, then released it with the money. I have found that throughout my teen and adult life, I have had unexpected "advances" from different men. Beginning when I was in my teens and the assistant manager where I worked told me he was getting a divorce from his wife and we began seeing one another. Of course he wasn't and I was devastated when I found out. This type of things has continued over the years. The professor who wanted to take me on a trip to the Caribbean, the professional man who always found some reason to touch me, every time we were in the same place, the men who have put their arms around my waist.  While it is flattering, I get so confused by it, I don't know what to do or how I should really feel about it.  And I have no one to ask about this. Even if N. where still here, I don't think I could ask her about this. Just one more confusing, addled thing to think about.