orb

There is a giant orb in my core that takes up all the space and threatens to grow and destroy me from the inside out. If I could take enough pills it would shrink and disappear. If I could cut or hurt myself strongly enough it would flake into pieces and disappear. Unless I do something it willsit there and kill me from the inside out. And worse than that it leads to real thoughts of suicide. Drowning, overdose, strangulation are what fills my mind and threatens to take over every other thought. I have called Dr. S. But he hasn't called back yet. PLEASE HELP ME