They all look so calm. Things kids say roll off of them while they ricochet inside my brain bumping into other similar thoughts until they get my brain all twisted and uptight. Other times I just want help getting rid of them all. That's when the thoughts make me think of taking many extra meds. I want to sleep for a long time and only wake up to the peace. Some of these thoughts are the struggle over cutting, taking meds, or other ways to soothe my bumper car brain. Are there people who never feel this way? If so I envy them. How do they do that? My breathing is wrong, I can't keep my legs still and I feel like I need to cut (or bite or break something) to release the pain. It doesn't work for long but it is better than nothing.
Want to call somebody but I don't know who to call. PLEASE HELP!
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