I'm sick, I'm tired, I'm frustrated, I'm angry and because of all those things I'm confused. I stayed home from work today, but had to go to a useless meeting and then class. Since yesterday our cable, Internet and phone have all been shut off because of non-payment, not that we couldn't pay, just that we didn't. I never gave BH bills for online payments, he didn't notice there were no bills and now we have a mess. Additionally, I got a ticket on campus, which I knew I was going to get and should have avoided. At least BH now sees how mixed up our financial situation is and that we need to get it all straightened out.

Yesterday was an a stressful day as well. We had a 504 meeting for DS. I was actually encouraged after the meeting. I may have overreacted to events of the last week, but now I have met with all his teachers and we have a better feeling for how things have gone so far this year. I also had another "out of body" episode. It is hard to explain this and I'm am a bit concerned because I believe they may be seizures. They only last a few seconds, I generally still hear and see what is going on, but my field of vision narrows and then I seem to jump ahead in time and things look different. I saw my MD about this, he decided it was not something to be concerned about, except that they may be optical migraines and if there is no pain associated with this, I don't need to worry. However, when my mother explained to me what a petit mal was like, it was almost identical to what I feel. This one occured immediately after the meeting ended.

I am too tired to even think about anything. The course I am taking is useless and we probably could have saved a couple hundred dollars of me taking it. I really have learned nothing new.

I had a meeting with my advisor and will know by the end of October if I am in the PhD program.

That's it.