This week hasn’t gotten much better. BH overpaid the bills again and now we’re scrambling for money for food and gas until our next paycheck. I was really angry with him because he just does not seem to get it. Maybe he has now. I had a ugly confrontation with two teachers because they got to school early and got the library unlocked so everything was open with no one watching out for the equipment. They got here early and thought they should always have access to the Riso machine. I feel like a teenager about the female teacher, when she came this morning and in a very obvious way said thank you to C. I called her a bitch under my breath. I’ve sunk to the level of many of our female students. I’m exhausted and just want to go home and sleep.

I’ve also been bothered by an incident that happened a few years ago that I had forgotten about until this week and now it really creeps me out. While talking to a consultant hired by the school he was masturbating. He did it with his hands in his pants but I still new. How disgusting! And why me? When I spoke to someone about it they recommended that I should never be alone with him-not that there would be any chance of that!

It’s back to work.