Well today was one of those really great days. I have been having trouble the past couple of weeks and have had very strong urges to cut. Then I have had trouble sleeping. So I took some extra clonazepam two nights ago and yesterday I took some extra seroquel. At about 8:30 this morning I went to the office to write a referral for a truly rude and disrespectful student and I just kind of crumpled to the floor. I could not stand up and I pretty much went into a very extended dissociative episode which lasted until about 5 (after a two hour nap.) I don't remember much, which is good because it cuts down on the humiliation factor. The nurses helped me walk to their office and then I lay down for a while. I eventually went back to work, though I have no clue what I did. Now, I just feel really rung out. I really hate myself-I should be better, there are so many people out there with real problems. Forget it.